Do you ever think..."WHAT THE HECK IS WRONG WITH ME?!?!?"

Ok so...given that I am a girl, it is already assumed that I am emotional. But, come on, why am I so emotional??? I mean seriously, I look at myself sometimes and wonder what's wrong? Will I ne like this forever? It seems like 15 year old girls have it more together than I do! You know what's the worst...new people. I am in the middle of trying to fit into a new home, and with new people. I really adore them, and I know they like me, but why do I struggle to truly be who I am and let that be enough? I mean I have the hardest time just holding a stinking conversation with someone. Grrrrr! So many thoughts it's ridiculous. My mind doesn't stop. Why doesn't it stop? And then when I try to figure out what the heck I am really thinking about...I have no clue! Welcome to me life! Who am I Lord? And then on top of it all...nevermind. Lord help!

Crimson Road

So a dear friend of mine wrote this amazing song that I can't stop playing today. Her name is Kristian, she is a youth in the church here in NM. She is so gifted, and I know God will use her in amazing ways now and forever....here are the lyrics and I will try to attatch the song, its amazing!

Crimson Road

Oh my God, what have I done

to a tree and nail your only son

Arms stretched wide, to break my pride

I saw the blood fall from His side

Thorns pressed deep in His head

not just blood Your love was shed

And now I will walk the crimson road

Step by step with You alone

And all to You I humbly give

You gave Your life that I may live

So I give all of me

I lift it you Lord take all of me

yes I give all of me

I lay it at Your feet

2007 New Beginnings

Well, first of all I would like to apologize for my lack of blogging. It didn't realize how hard it was gonna be to keep in touch. In this new year I want to blog at least once a month. And if I don't feel free to send me all the hate mail you would like, cause thats what I may need to get my act together and write more. But anyways....wow...2007! Can you believe it? I am 20 now, thats crazy in itself. I can feel the change. Its hard to figure out where I fit in in group settings. I love to be with kids, but feel to old at times, the teenagers (13-17) sometimes seem to be in that spot of trying to fugure life out that its odd for me to hang out there cause it's just odd, and the adults, well thats where I seem to find myself the most comfortable, yet people my age are the best cause we can relate the best. I am blessed to have a nice number of people my age here, so I guess overall being 20 is alright. We are in a time of transitioning in the Masters Commission right now. Our student had some family issues and decided to withdraw from the program, so your prayers would be awesome for us and her. Right now we are just trying to hear the Lord about what He wants to do now. Please pray for us. We will be in Washington from Jan. 31 until Feb. 19the, for a Microsoft show, and MC conference. So this next month is busy yet exciting! Lets see what else....random things are: I hurt my elbow weight lifting, I got a new San Diego Coffee Cup, I went to Mexico for new years with my dad, I got a french tip manicure, I broke one of my french tipped manicured nails yesterday, we are working on a drama to the Skillet song Comatose for MC conference, My mom is coming tomorrow, I have White Cherry Blossom body splash from Bath and Body works, and I am gonna go get lunch at Wendys now. I love you all and Pastor Mike says he loves u too.....and I will write more often.

Amen.

-Erica

Its been a while ay"?

I got wasted!

Woah. Well where do I even start. Tonite I went to kinship, at the Martinez's and I knew the Holy Spirit was ready to move on us, but He was hindered. But, we had an after party. It was Emily, Kaenan, Patrick, Mateo, Liesa, Maggie Jean and I , all at Emily's apt. We started talking about the greatness of God, and Kaenan started to talk about His encounters with the Holy Spirit, and then He prayed and...WHOOSH....Everyone was laughing (which was only patrick, mateo, kaenan, emily and I ), I wasn't laughing tho. They were praying and laughing, and just being free in the Spirit....I was just praying "Holy Spirit, have your way, come, do what you want." Once I let go of fear of man, I cried. A gut wrenching crying too. Everyone was laughing and I was crying, then....I felt like a calm, and Patrick, I think, started screaming like he was on a rolercoaster!!! And by this time Liesa and MJ had come over and Liesa was so filled up she started screaming like she was on a rollercoaster too. So here's all these people screaming "WOOOOOOHOOOOOO", and something is bubbling in me, AND I LAUGHED. I couldn't control it, So we were all laughing and having so much fun, getting "drunk" in the spirit. MAN, it ws amazing. I can't do the experience justice with words, but there was one point, where I sensed the Lord just sitting back watching and I was saying "God your crazy....I love it!", and He would look over and say something and then jump and laugh and play with us. IT WAS GREAT!! Man, I want everyone to experience this.

I think we were there just laughing and playing with the Lord for 2 hours!

There was another point where we were all just chillin' and in a daze, and Liesa told us to just look around at each other....WE ALL LOOKED SO WASTED!!! BUT....it was pure. It's ok to have this encounter with the Lord, it's what He wants....He's real. AUGHHHHHHHHHH.....I can't even begin to express what I experienced tonite, I pray you will all find out yourselves, don't seek the experience, SEEK THE ENCOUNTER, SEEK THE RELATIONSHIP, FRIENDSHIP, FUN....WITH GOD! So pretty much I got wasted!

I love you all!


-Erica

ps...I wonder what the hang over is gonna be like? lol

Hard Times, Balloons and Sleep

Sorry its been awhile. Lifes been extra tough lately, BUT God is so good. Thank you for all your prayers. So I went to the balloon fiesta yesterday....5am! It was amazing! those are the pictures...I got sick 2 days ago and slept today until 2pm.... I had some crazy fun dreams....God is good. Oh yea I saw One Night With the King, in the theatres yesterday....AMAZING!! I am now all ga-ga over God. Its the story of Esther....its great. Well I am not very talkitive...but I will write more later....love you all!

Erica

I am tired...

So I am about to go to beddy bye, but before I do I justed wanted to stop by here and let you all know that I miss you and care about you dearly. Please be praying for me and our program, we need financial provision, and we can see the Lord is moving, we just need strength to keep hanging on and walking in faith. There is a possibilty of getting a new student, (I will fill you in on that later), but if you could be praying we would so appreciate it! Thank you so much! I hope it rains tonight. (just a random side-note).


much love-
Erica